Stuart Wilde passed away a few months ago of a heart attack at age 66. I am eternally grateful to him for giving it to me straight and simple. He awakened me through his powerful ideas and actions at the Warriors Wisdom workshop in Taos, new Mexico. I was 33 then. Today, 20 years later, I still count that as the biggest turning point of my life and consciousness, thus far.

A great silence descended on me, right from when I got on the plane to Taos for the three day workshop. I had no expectations, I was a novice, a true beginner. I did not even know that the silence was significant. I just noticed it, curious.

The silence grew and expanded throughout those three days of paradigm busting experiences, metaphysical lectures and 4 am meditations, feeling my spirit snap to attention inside me to the crack of a gunshot in a large room, a near death experience as I fell off a high-wire, and finally a fire-walk, chanting “Cool moss, cool moss”, which left me feeling exhilarated and certain that this was my birth-right, to be this awake, this ecstatic.

That state of ecstasy lasted for about three weeks, and then tapered off, as mundane reality crept in. However, its effect has been profound. I have spent the rest of my life integrating that experience, rediscovering that state, and making it my own, so that I can hold that ecstasy in my body once again, as a natural state.

Here is an account of my near death experience at Stuart Wilde’s Seminar.