In memory of Stuart Wilde who delivered to me my first and biggest awakening

In memory of Stuart Wilde who delivered to me my first and biggest awakening

Stuart Wilde passed away a few months ago of a heart attack at age 66. I am eternally grateful to him for giving it to me straight and simple. He awakened me through his powerful ideas and actions at the Warriors Wisdom workshop in Taos, new Mexico. I was 33 then. Today, 20 years later, I still count that as the biggest turning point of my life and consciousness, thus far.

A great silence descended on me, right from when I got on the plane to Taos for the three day workshop. I had no expectations, I was a novice, a true beginner. I did not even know that the silence was significant. I just noticed it, curious.

The silence grew and expanded throughout those three days of paradigm busting experiences, metaphysical lectures and 4 am meditations, feeling my spirit snap to attention inside me to the crack of a gunshot in a large room, a near death experience as I fell off a high-wire, and finally a fire-walk, chanting “Cool moss, cool moss”, which left me feeling exhilarated and certain that this was my birth-right, to be this awake, this ecstatic.

That state of ecstasy lasted for about three weeks, and then tapered off, as mundane reality crept in. However, its effect has been profound. I have spent the rest of my life integrating that experience, rediscovering that state, and making it my own, so that I can hold that ecstasy in my body once again, as a natural state.

Here is an account of my near death experience at Stuart Wilde’s Seminar.

TransMedia Storytelling

TransMedia Storytelling


Entheogens awaken one to a higher view of reality, a holographic view, and in order to communicate the truths that transcend the current views of our culture you need Transmedia Storytelling, an entirely new form of storytelling where the inner experience as well as the outer experience is elucidated, so that a species and culture in the grip of prohibition can understand why entheogens are a powerful savior and why we need to awaken to their decriminalization.

Awake Media is actively seeking clients, partners, and collaborations to create transcendent media products or services for the entheogenic marketplace. 

Contact Lakshmi or Rowan if you are interested in creating products like these:

  • Guided Multimedia Meditations: (seeking collaborators for ‘The Diamond Body” meditation)
  • Psychedelic Short Stories: A short multimedia piece that depicts a psychedelic episode or dream sequence, using a multimedia narrative form, where there is an audio retelling, combined with 3D, animation, live video, and typography. (Read an example of a psychedelic episode depiction)
  • Interactive shamanic children’s books (seeking collaborators for The Magic Tree)
  • Metaphysical Video Games (seeking collaborators for Raise Your Resonance and The Cosmic Snake and Jacob’s Ladder)
  • Feature Films – Seeking collaborators for Gifted, an ayahuasca feature film, Adoreway, a film about tantra, and’s FEAT documentary Iboga Saves
The Secret of Synchronicity

The Secret of Synchronicity

The Buddha questioned the necessity of suffering. He is represented as having withdrawn into pure detachment, and to me there has always been something partial about this interpretation of his teaching. No-mind, in my experience, is a very heartful place. I am drawn to the non-dualism of Tantra to balance that One-sidedness.

Compassion sits on the other side of the coin of detachment. When life hands you suffering, the choice is to forgive and forget or remember and suffer the past again and again because there is no time allocated in the present for the past.

So you have to feel your feelings in the now, get current, and go with the flow, of today, EVEN if you can see that this today is a cumulation of many past sufferings or feelings left unattended, you cannot attend to them anymore, that river has flown on, and in the river of NOW there is a feeling happening, an energy present, and by connecting to that energy, the current one, it will carry you along, to a future that is aligned because the present is aligned. That’s the secret of synchronicity.


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Transcendental Cinema

The Coming of Age of the Human

Humanity has reached a pinnacle of achievement and decadence. Anything is possible in this most of all possible worlds. The adolescent dreamer awakens to a nightmarish world of his own creation… a world of instant gratification, fast cars, low technology, and very little substance. I am the possible Hu-man in this equation waking up to my self-created destiny. I see that I am firmly caught in the webs of this world, and my desire for a simpler, easier way to be, a return to Innocence, is growing. I see that the peculiar task that has been appointed to me, to my generation, is to be a bridge between an old collapsing culture, and a new one that is still unformed and dark. For a while I must straddle both worlds, subject to death throes and birth pangs at once, and they are both most real in their intensity.
A New Age does not come by itself. It is a confluence of nature, and the steps are available for those who would dare to tread in deep waters. It is the Will of Man that creates the new age,   We have lived our entire lives in separation. In this separation lies the seed of the discontent that pervades humanity. The nuclear family has created the nuclear age. Our wills have become weak, as governments and computers have dictated to us more and more what we may and may not do. Statistics drown out dreams, numbers crunch visions.
Standing at the end of an Age, I carry with me all the corruption and wisdom of my history. And yet within me are the seeds of my own rebirth. Seeds that are being infused with new vitality, the God-force, New candles being lit on the guttering carcasses of the old. This is the gift and grace of this time. It allows me to delve into and clean out my depths, so I can see clearly, and am able to gaze again into the limpid pool of my Self. I en-vision my life anew.   I have gained the power of Self-reflection.
When I realize that I have never been saner or clearer, or more lucid than when I am in the vibration of Ecstasy, I realize that this is my dream, to be that way, to exist in God’s vibration and create, by reflection, the beauty in my own mind. This is the aspiration and the humble wish for new beginnings: The desire to feel again the Prime Ordeal.

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